It became my attitude to have affinity to beings which I haven't known for a considerable periods of time. The thing is, I think I lack the value of appreciation which is something intimate. My mind unconsciously targets anyone I acquaint with.
It seems that I am hopeless or worst desperate.
I know better, and I don't deserve you but somehow what had just happened was bruising. It felt like I'm disposable and readily discarded after being used.
Or maybe I'm jealous because I have started knowing you and you have already turned your view to another.
I feel numb.



